Finding Our Way by Jayson James

Author:Jayson James [James, Jayson]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2013-05-19T23:00:00+00:00

Chapter 6: If I Was Your Boyfriend

Derrick

When I had finally fallen asleep, I had a horrible dream. Actually, it was more of a nightmare. Justin was telling me how sick he was with what I made him do while he was drunk. He accused me of taking advantage of him. I was arguing with him and trying to defend myself. I was starting to blame him and I finally asked him, what have you done to me? I was horrified at my saying this to him and wished to take it back. I just wanted to wake up and have Justin there holding me tight.

I woke up and was glad to see Justin lying next to me. Justin had always been the person I could communicate with like I could with no other person. Although Justin was a major verbalizer, we could just quietly spend time together. He had told me that I was the only person he ever felt good about just being silent with.

We stayed cuddled face to face for quite some time with our faces touching. It felt so good to have Justin holding me. I thought I could lay here with him like this for eternity. Suddenly I knew we were going to find a way to make things work out, regardless of what kind of relationship we had.

Justin was the first to speak, “I was nervous about getting a boner, but I can feel you have one too.”

I giggled. I had not even given it any thought, “That’s cool.”

We rubbed our noses together, but never kissed. My mind was flooded with so much that I wanted to tell Justin as well as so much that I wanted to know. I was counting on Justin’s ability to talk to broach the subject of us.

It was like he knew what was on my mind, “I really like you and I mean in a sense of more than being your best friend.”

“I really like you too.” I stopped and could feel myself holding back. I took a deep breath and said, “I want to be with you like we were the other night.”

“Me too!” Justin’s eyes filled with tears. He was choked up, “Being with you felt so right.”

“That is exactly how I felt.”

“I am so glad that it was not just some drunken escapade,” Justin was beaming.

I was a little confused, but not about how I felt about Justin. I admitted, “I am not sure how all this works.”

“I don’t know how it does either. I guess we will have to figure it out together.” Justin paused and looked like he was thinking, “I cannot imagine either of us being the girl in our… Well whatever we are…”

“I can’t see either one of us as the girl. We are both guys.” Now I was really confused, “How does this all work?”

“I thought saying I love you was going to be the hard part.” Justin smiled, “You have no idea what it means to me that you said it first.

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